That's something I have heard from the men in my life for as long as I can remember. .. my parents taught me "that's it you pick yourself up and carry on"...my son said to me once in a discussion when he was in his early 20's "not everyone is like you. Not everyone can pick themselves up and carry on ... Nothing bad ever happens to you" I didn't know he felt like that...the day of my 1st chemo I was 20 feet from the door to do the scariest thing I have ever done in my life and my phone rings. My 30 year old son is beside himself. His fear of losing me had him inconsolable. Do you know what I said " do you still believe nothing bad ever happens to me? " he said" ya I guess" "then I am fine" he never worried about my cancer again. .. because he believes that I am always fine... my husband and my ex husband both say " Lois you do what you always do, you carry on"... my mother's idea of me faltered and she has seen more of my weakness than anyone this last year. But I can see her wanting, maybe more than that..."pick yourself up!!" ... I am slower than I have ever been... I am not what I used to be... but what exactly is the alternative? Do you know it never occurred to me there has ever been an alternative!?! Though I have no idea what it might be. .. 6 days post surgery and I am thinking I have been down too long! I feel okay, the only way to feel better is to get moving! But part of me is afraid... part of me could hide here for a while longer... what if I stumble? What if I am not up to the challenge? What if I am to tired? It has been so long since I have felt really good. Can I get that back??? I have to believe the answer is yes!
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