Do you ever wonder???

Do you??? Am I working hard enough?  Am I smart enough? Should I be doing something new? I saw it okay I am not as motivated as I think I would like to be?  Why at 54 years old am I still  questioning myself?  I  am a good person! I am a hard worker! I am creative! I am going to be fine!
These are the conversations I have with myself on a fairly regular basis. I know that it is mostly induced by the anti cancer drug I am taking. My oncologist would like me to take an anti depression drug. I understand why. It is unpleasant to feel this way. But to medicate for something a medication did seems counter intuitive.
I am working through this. I will prevail!

Moving forward!!!

I love this working out with a purpose!!! I am on Day 5 of 30 30 crunchs 30 days! As a #breastcancersurvivor this is close to my heart!
Try it! Raising Cancer awareness 39.6% of people in the US get Cancer in their lifetime. #crunchcancer #20tocrushcancer
And
Day 40 of 22   #22kill #22pushupchallenge  #pushupchallenge #gettingstrongereveryday

https://www.veteranscrisisline.net/mobile/
I am also doing the 1000k challenge  walk/run by December 31st 2017 1000-30000 miles!  To raise awareness of veterans services
All of these things are helping me stay focused and hyper aware that it is bigger than Lois losing weight ... or even getting healthy!!! For me it is about  participating in something that will help others too... 2017, the year that helping myself literally translates in helping others...

The Snow is Gone!!! And I have my life back! !!

Was the snow a metaphor for my fear of possibly having cancer again? ?? Maybe. .. all I know is I had my Diagnostic Mammogram yesterday and all is well!!! And yesterday was the first day I was out driving because the snow was melted by the rain overnight... Yesterday was a great day!!! I like I was let out of a cage... I  know, weird... So today I am back on the path!!! I have gained so much weight this last month it feels like I am completely starting over...but I am here and healthy enough to start over!!! I joined
https://charitychallenges.org/ and started again  c210k I am also doing #22kill #22pushupchallenge and #cruchcancer ! I Am also doing a aqua power!!!  I will find more... I am  calling it working out with purpose!!! It is not just about me so I hope to represent well...

Raising Awareness for veterans that commit suicide every day. ..

I am on day 35... I am posting on instagram as mylois ... it is a great cause!!! Get healthy and help people!!!
The picture is a patch the #22kill website sells...

What scares me...

Tomorrow afternoon I am going to have a diagnostic mammogram and physical therapy on my left (breast cancer ) breast... so here are my challenges with this...pros and cons... pro I get results before I leave yeah!!! Con they are looking for cancer... pro my oncologist is hyper-vigilant... con I have the words inflammatory breast cancer stuck in my head!!! Pro the physical therapy should help the lymphedema in my breast which has a low level ache all the time and actually hurts when touched... Con they have to touch it to fix it... Let's end on a pro... I am probably just fine...

Done with Snowmagedon!!! But it's not gone...

I have been riding the bus... which isn't horrible, other than that is so very cold!!! It is 22° right now!!! And the wind!!! I am having a hard time finding the bright side to this story... so I am going to list the pros and cons...

Cons; cold!!!
            Icy
            Can't walk the dogs  (because it is to cold and icy!!!)
            Snow covering everything!!!
             I can't drive
             I feel trapped
             I feel less motivated  (weird)
              Clients have to reschedule because they are trapped!!!
             I make less money
             I don't get as much exercise

Pros;  snuggling with my dogs
           Snuggling up in my bed staying warm
            Working short days
            Watching shows I keep meaning to, but am always doing something else
             Thinking about riding the bus more
             Getting a few inside things done.

Ya,that did not help...I am so tired of the snow/ice!!!

Snowmagedon!!!

This is not my weather!!! Not my time to shine... I am trying...okay not much... I am doing inside exercise... but sleeping more...I do not like being cold!!! I do not risk injury by weather!!! I feel emotionally paralyzed... I do not know how to snap out of it...Tomorrow will be a better day...

Happy New Year! !!

A year full of potential!!! Welcome!!!  2015... I spent most of that year doing all kinds of great things! Spending time with so many special people... Then I found out that I had a clogged artery and had a stint put in... That day changed a lot for me... 2016 became my can do year!!!
I " wogged " my first 5k then 10k!!! Yet another year of spending precious time with people  (never enough time to be with everyone )... Life continues to be a joy!!! 2017 I hope to do more of the same!!! Exercise, eat better, spend time with friends! Live a life that I can be proud of!!!