Still Cancer Free!!!

These are the days I like. .. Going to the oncologist and getting good news!!! So now (as I was before) I am preparing for the Komen Breast Cancer race in September... here is what I have done so far...

The payoff!

When putting in a garden you don't think about the payoff... or at least I didn't... it is a lovely calm that comes over you...  I feel like it was exactly what my world needed...

Gardens & Gardening!

Is it not ironic how things that make us think "old person" when we are young. Just make us happy when we are not young!?! I recently to on the project of transforming my sad front yard into a cottage garden! It was crazy hard work tearing out the sod and relocating to the back yard (long story). And after a week and a half of back breaking work, I started planting this evening!  One more step to the right path...

Memorial day weekend is now!!!

My mother and I go every year to put flowers on our loved ones resting places... my father took her before he passed and it fell to me after. But I have come to love this time, as sad as it seems. To see the people, the beautiful cemeteries, the flowers and flags...

Walking walking walking!!!

Been doing a lot of walking lately! Check it out!

Did the Dash ... the Doggie Dash!

Wet and wild! !! We had a great dash!  Very very wet! My boys did amazing. Then we went and had breakfast... then a long soak in the tub... a good damn day!

Doggie Dash and Heart walk!

So tomorrow is the Doggie Dash! and in a week the Heart walk below are the links to donate or participate!  Please give what you can to support this great cause!  Every dollar is appreciated. Thank you for your help please click the link to donate. https://secure.oregonhumane.org/doggiedash/LoisMilareThank you!Lois

Also
http://www2.heart.org/site/TR?fr_id=2168&pg=personal&px=4028430&s_hasSecureSession=true

Thank you in advance for all you have done for me!

Love Roller Coaster!

Just felt the need to get it out. Before taking the Extrimane (sp) I had never experienced profound anxiety and depression. Also it crept up on me so it took a while for me to recognize. Then I just wanted to get off the med, the Doctor pleaded with me to just take the anti-anxiety med. The a couple more years seriously decreased my chances of recurrence.  So good girl eventually dose as I am told. And after a few weeks I feel like myself again! I  now know why people go off their meds. I felt fine why keep taking it? Right? Until 3 weeks later. And everything is so hard! Going to refill today. I  will be fine again in a couple weeks

Yoga, pushup's and hiking and all things that make me feel good!

3 months of Yoga has me a believer! I honestly feel so much better! Mostly the biggest difference is the absence of the aches that have been ever present for a few years now. Don't get me wrong I still have things that hurt but no where near the scale that they have in the past.
I  started with yoga for flexibility then after a month moved into the yoga for strength.  I really believe I am so taken with this because of the instructor Chad Carver! Yoga has made me stronger and more confident.  So thank you.

Time flys!!!

I just realized it has been over a month since I posted last. So here's what life looks like today (I am so boring). I started yoga 2 months ago I totally love it!!! I have not felt this good in ages! I am not running but fast walking the boys now ( tired of falling ) haven't fallen in 2 month! On day 114 of push ups! Starting back on portion control Friday!  Life in general is good.

I am over it!!!

This winter has been the winter illness ice and injury!!! I am so over it!!! so today we did our First pack walk this year... the boys were not great but we had a good time... I am on day 76  the #pushupchallenge and 26 of the #crushcancer 20 crunch challenge!!! I'm taking you yoga and the boys and I are just getting back out on the road again training... we have a half marathon in July!!!. So I'm over this winter and spring Bring It On!!!

Flexibility!!!

So I started talking a flexibility class! It is amazing! I am still healing, but the stretching is fantastic.  Still doing the challenges too. I am on day 64! Of the#pushupchallenge 22 pushup for 22 days to raise awareness of the veterans that commit suicide everyday!  And those with PTSD
#22kill  #gettingstrongereveryday

Clumsy is my name!!! Or bad butt

Seriously!!??!! So I just got done with my latest training c210k... and my husband is standing on our Porch about half a block away so I let the boys off leash to run to him since he is calling to them madly...we occasionally play this game where we stand far apart and send the boots running to the other parent...at top speed...what he did not know was that during our run I had stumbled and pulled a button muscle...what I did not know was he sent the boys hurling back at me! !! Gizmo took to the air (something I have been trying to break him of) Stripe running to fast list control of his stop...end result, I am blocking Gizmo with my left arm and Stripe slides into the right leg and I literally hear something tearing in my butt muscle!!! It hurt so bad I lost my breath!!! I couldn't breath!!! I can't sit on my right butt cheek... I think I am going to call the advice nurse and see what I should do...

Bad day...

Who know what happened!!! It is like this... up all night,the bathroom holds me hostage...then the day comes I have no energy and my stomach is still not working properly. ..my husband has a lousy day so that doesn't help!!! And I don't feel up to doing my workout. .. I am definitely depressed and having a hard time finding my happy thought... well there is always tomorrow! !!

Do you ever wonder???

Do you??? Am I working hard enough?  Am I smart enough? Should I be doing something new? I saw it okay I am not as motivated as I think I would like to be?  Why at 54 years old am I still  questioning myself?  I  am a good person! I am a hard worker! I am creative! I am going to be fine!
These are the conversations I have with myself on a fairly regular basis. I know that it is mostly induced by the anti cancer drug I am taking. My oncologist would like me to take an anti depression drug. I understand why. It is unpleasant to feel this way. But to medicate for something a medication did seems counter intuitive.
I am working through this. I will prevail!

Moving forward!!!

I love this working out with a purpose!!! I am on Day 5 of 30 30 crunchs 30 days! As a #breastcancersurvivor this is close to my heart!
Try it! Raising Cancer awareness 39.6% of people in the US get Cancer in their lifetime. #crunchcancer #20tocrushcancer
And
Day 40 of 22   #22kill #22pushupchallenge  #pushupchallenge #gettingstrongereveryday

https://www.veteranscrisisline.net/mobile/
I am also doing the 1000k challenge  walk/run by December 31st 2017 1000-30000 miles!  To raise awareness of veterans services
All of these things are helping me stay focused and hyper aware that it is bigger than Lois losing weight ... or even getting healthy!!! For me it is about  participating in something that will help others too... 2017, the year that helping myself literally translates in helping others...

The Snow is Gone!!! And I have my life back! !!

Was the snow a metaphor for my fear of possibly having cancer again? ?? Maybe. .. all I know is I had my Diagnostic Mammogram yesterday and all is well!!! And yesterday was the first day I was out driving because the snow was melted by the rain overnight... Yesterday was a great day!!! I like I was let out of a cage... I  know, weird... So today I am back on the path!!! I have gained so much weight this last month it feels like I am completely starting over...but I am here and healthy enough to start over!!! I joined
https://charitychallenges.org/ and started again  c210k I am also doing #22kill #22pushupchallenge and #cruchcancer ! I Am also doing a aqua power!!!  I will find more... I am  calling it working out with purpose!!! It is not just about me so I hope to represent well...

Raising Awareness for veterans that commit suicide every day. ..

I am on day 35... I am posting on instagram as mylois ... it is a great cause!!! Get healthy and help people!!!
The picture is a patch the #22kill website sells...

What scares me...

Tomorrow afternoon I am going to have a diagnostic mammogram and physical therapy on my left (breast cancer ) breast... so here are my challenges with this...pros and cons... pro I get results before I leave yeah!!! Con they are looking for cancer... pro my oncologist is hyper-vigilant... con I have the words inflammatory breast cancer stuck in my head!!! Pro the physical therapy should help the lymphedema in my breast which has a low level ache all the time and actually hurts when touched... Con they have to touch it to fix it... Let's end on a pro... I am probably just fine...

Done with Snowmagedon!!! But it's not gone...

I have been riding the bus... which isn't horrible, other than that is so very cold!!! It is 22° right now!!! And the wind!!! I am having a hard time finding the bright side to this story... so I am going to list the pros and cons...

Cons; cold!!!
            Icy
            Can't walk the dogs  (because it is to cold and icy!!!)
            Snow covering everything!!!
             I can't drive
             I feel trapped
             I feel less motivated  (weird)
              Clients have to reschedule because they are trapped!!!
             I make less money
             I don't get as much exercise

Pros;  snuggling with my dogs
           Snuggling up in my bed staying warm
            Working short days
            Watching shows I keep meaning to, but am always doing something else
             Thinking about riding the bus more
             Getting a few inside things done.

Ya,that did not help...I am so tired of the snow/ice!!!

Snowmagedon!!!

This is not my weather!!! Not my time to shine... I am trying...okay not much... I am doing inside exercise... but sleeping more...I do not like being cold!!! I do not risk injury by weather!!! I feel emotionally paralyzed... I do not know how to snap out of it...Tomorrow will be a better day...

Happy New Year! !!

A year full of potential!!! Welcome!!!  2015... I spent most of that year doing all kinds of great things! Spending time with so many special people... Then I found out that I had a clogged artery and had a stint put in... That day changed a lot for me... 2016 became my can do year!!!
I " wogged " my first 5k then 10k!!! Yet another year of spending precious time with people  (never enough time to be with everyone )... Life continues to be a joy!!! 2017 I hope to do more of the same!!! Exercise, eat better, spend time with friends! Live a life that I can be proud of!!!